Oh my god these books. They stick a hand through your chest, twist your heart til you think it will burst, pull your heart out and stomp on it, and somehow through all this, your heart grows stronger, fills with more love than you can bear. Then your heart is stuck back in your chest so it can beat 1000 times a minute in suspense and anxiety. And then again, and some more. Dear God. Just read it. Then we can talk.